Read My Heart Out: RH BILL

Read My Heart Out: RH BILL: "As a nursing student I know how important it is to implement family planning and important it is to use contraceptives to control unwanted p..."

RH BILL

As a nursing student I know how important it is to implement family planning and important it is to use contraceptives to control unwanted pregnancy. These contraceptives will help the mother to avoid certain diseases to occur and to acquire. It will help people to know how important it is to plan for their family for the well being of their children. And I think planning is not bad and “HIM” will never disagree with it.

We all know that our population today is too much to count. And sadly though that this kind of education about family planning cannot be afforded and even didn’t know by many of us esp. the low status of living which the one who’s suffering to this kind of problem like “unwanted pregnancy” and diseases that can be acquired by it. 

But people are just naturally stubborn and just following what they believe in, without considering that it might occur to them as well. Sometimes we failed to think the importance of planning and we just go to what we feel is just good for us. Until we’re on the point that we’re there in the situation we didn’t know how important the thing is. We should think wisely and act accordingly wise… we should know that the world today is not like the world before in the beginning. It’s not the rule of multiplying but the rule of planning because people as of today is suffering of many things like poverty, deadly diseases, calamities etc. that we need to always prepare ourselves.

However, it’s just funny how people need to argue about a certain thing that will help the mankind. It’s funny how people think it’s not important to do family planning and used such a device to help the family to secure their living. It’s funny that they don’t understand the important of educating the poor people who needs such education and helping them esp. the mother to avoid such diseases that they might get. It’s funny to hear the rules of multiplying although people are suffering because of over population. It’s funny to hear that using contraceptives is linking to having an abortion because of wrong thinking of killing. Did they forget their biology or anatomy in college? Did they not know the cycle of reproductive system? I wonder.

And It’s funny why they need to argue and debate while people are just doing what they think it’s good for them. It’s really “FUNNY!” …

What I can say is open your eyes! We’re moving forward but not backward! We should plan our lives and we should think before we act! Use your head because it’s not there to teach you trash things but to educate you and avoid ignorance. And to all the things that we do “HIM” will always teach us what’s good for us to do… so “always listen!”

.... I wonder if this argument will end well or will result in much worst thing, whatever it is I expect the unexpected... because we're living in this world. Am I right?!  

You’ve Change my Heart... to be continue....

( Looking back, the princes "Ashy d'Minor and the whole Terropia (her world) were all vanquished because of the evil prince 'Luthor Miengoza" who wanted to take the princes as his wife. Stubbornly, the princess and the whole palace stand for their beliefs that they can win against the evil prince but they'd failed. To be able to save the princes her great mentor and a white witch teacher "Madam Rosselle" save her using her magic spell of bringing the princes into another world. Now, how will she be able to accept it and how will she discover that this world is very different to her world. ) 

While princess Ashy was at a deep sleep, in her dream she saw a huge and powerful light that covers her whole body. She felt warm inside as if like she’s burning alive. Then suddenly, she heard a voice that comforted her and gave her strength. The voice was so lovely and gentle just like a lullaby.  She couldn’t understand what the voice was saying but somehow it seems as if it was calling a name. When the voice became clearer to her she finally understood what it was saying. It said “Wake up my dear Rex….” She thought that she could be dreaming and this could be part of her dream. 

Suddenly she heard a loud splash of water and she started to feel cold. She opened her eyes and look at the surroundings but she couldn’t see anything clearer. It was just hurting her eyes the more she opens it widely. But when it gets clearer to her she saw someone by her side holding her hand.

It was an old lady, with a gentle and loving face, that seems worried about her.

She recognized the voice; it was the voice that’s inside her dream. The old woman was asking her if she’s alright and how she’s feeling. The princess still clueless about the things going on around her and start to asked herself who’s this old lady that’s talking to her. She asked the old lady “Did I know you? And who is Rex?” The old lady seems surprised about the things she asked and looked like she was going to freak out. “Vince! Come here! Please Hurry!” the old lady shouted with fear in her eyes. Then suddenly a man came rushing in and asked the old lady what was happening. “I think Rex bumped his head while taking a shower and forgets who he is! Oh God, please help our poor Rex!” the old woman exclaimed and she started to cry. The man tried to get closer to the princess but she freaked out and pushed the man very hard.

The princess gave her all strength to stand up. When she finally have stood up that’s when she noticed that she was actually naked. She shouted very loud as if it could destroy the whole place and started to run very fast. She saw an open door and hurriedly went in. Inside the room she saw a blanket and she covered herself with it. The shocked and frightened princess Ashy suddenly felt that something was wrong with her. She looked at her body and with a great surprised; she saw that her body have changed into a man’s body! She became a man!

“It can’t be real! It must be a dream! I’m just dreaming! When I close my eyes all will be going back to normal!” the princess repeatedly saying it to herself as she trying to comfort herself to this shocking event. Suddenly, the man together with the old lady came in the room. They wanted to get closer to her but she shouted at them saying “Please go away! Just leave me alone!” and she hid herself in the blanket just like a little child who’s afraid of something scary. The man held her close and said “Hey bro, let me take you to the hospital”. She eventually lost her strength and she fainted.

When she opened her eyes she saw Madam Rosselle smiling at her. The princess hugged her and said “Now, I’m finally awake.”

“No, your majesty, you’re dreaming right now” said Madam Rosselle. The princess was surprised at what Madam Rosselle had said to her. She yelled at her saying “No! Don’t talk nonsense! I’m not dreaming alright! Here with you is where I really belong!” After saying this Madam Rosselle smiled at her and touched her head. This is what she always does when the princess starts to burst out with anger. “Don’t worry my dear princess. Don’t be afraid. The world your living now is where you can be safe. This world is different from the world you had been to. And although, your body have changed you’re still our princess who have a great courage to stand on her own. And I always believe in the strength of your heart” said Madam Rosselle as her eyes sparkled like stars at night. “No! Don’t leave me here! I can’t live without you. There are so many things I want to ask you. I have to find the king and queen. What happen to Terropia? Why am I here!?” said the princess with a teary eyes. She tried to touch Madam Rosselle but she suddenly disappeared.

Then suddenly a warm and gentle touched awakens her. When she opened her eyes she saw the old lady watching over her. The old lady warmly smiles at her and hold her hand. She somehow felt at ease on that moment. “I’m glad you’re finally awake” said the old lady and hugs her tightly. A man enters the room with a big smile on his face. “Hey bro, are you finally at your old self now? I don’t want to see my little brother acting so strangely stupid anymore!” said the man. He comes closer to her and rubs her hair just like a big brother to his little brother. She felt uncomfortable with that so she pushed his hand and said “Please don’t touch me!” The man sat beside her and put his arms around her shoulder and said “Oh, now you’re acting like a girl! You’re giving me a goose bump!” and he laughed out loud. The princess was very annoyed with the man as she was trying to push the man away from her. Then she noticed that the old lady was smiling while looking at them with her teary eyes. Somehow she now understands what madam Rosselle has said to her in her dream. That her new world is not bad after all, they’re just like her family in Terropia. They are warm and she somehow feels happy inside.

Read My Heart Out: What if....

Read My Heart Out: What if....: "I close my eyes and dream of “WHAT IF”… What if I have all the things I ever wanted in life… Beautiful and big houses, expensive cars, ..."

What if....

I close my eyes and dream of “WHAT IF”…

What if I have all the things I ever wanted in life…

Beautiful and big houses, expensive cars, High-tech gadgets, expensive accessories with important gems that covers it, becoming a famous star and celebrity that everyone talks about, having a perfect face and body, owning big companies and businesses all over the world and having friends with known people and business tycoons …. I asked myself again “What if” I born and live like that? I have the things I wanted in life and I can have things with just one snap of my finger everything will be there in front of me that I don’t have to work hard for it.  Maybe I should die gladly and happily because I didn’t have to suffer much in this world. I have all the things that money can buy and I think I will be satisfied for the rest of my life.

But when I’m dreaming about it and imagining that I have all those things that people is dying to have… some kind of emptiness and loneliness crept into my heart and mind. I wonder why I feel unhappy to all the things I’m dreaming about.

And then I remember to look into my true view, into my reality. I remember all the simple things that make me smile and happy. I remember being with my family, watching movies with them, having a simple meals everyday that my mother cooked and saying it was delicious, playing computer games with my cousins, having get together with my relatives, having my friends around me, sharing them my thoughts and feelings, sharing funny jokes, dreaming with them and sometimes sharing some bitterness about life. I remember my first job and salary that I can’t think of anything to buy and ends up of buying simple things I needed and simple food I wanted to eat. I remember how I divide the small money I’ve earned, I divide it equally depends on my own needs and wants… and it was my first time to budget my own money and now I’d say it’s not a simple task. I remember how I bow to my Korean bosses when I’m working with them, how my feet hurts badly because of standing long hours in the mall and how my mother massage it at night just to relive the pain, how I endure the ridicule of someone else that I didn’t know and saying sorry to them although it’s not my fault, how desperately I’m looking for another job when my contract ends in a company I’m working with, how I need to obey my superiors and how I need to follow all of their orders even though your so beat to do all of that and they will say to you that you’re so slow, how I endure the long travel from my house to my work place, back and forth everyday, and sometimes when you’ve got sick they will blame you for being too weak.

I remember all of that and when I think about it I can’t help but just smile. =)... because I can’t imagine that I did all of that and I handle all of those things although it’s tough. I’m happy to know that I surpassed those days that it’s just like a dream to me now. I’m happy because my family is always there to support me and give me inspiration and strength to move ahead. And also about the people I’ve known during those days and they became part of my life.

Although they’re also simple and ordinary people like me they all touched my heart. They share wonderful things I’d learned about and I’ll never forget. They make me smile and took away all the bad things I felt that time, although they never knew about it, still I’m thankful because I’ve met them.

I also remember the people who were just for one minute of meeting them they’re wonderful enough to be known about. They’re not rich people or famous one but they’ve entertained me and gave me something money couldn’t buy. Small talks, simple jokes, their smile and saying thank you and take care, were all simple but just enough to make me feel glad and happy about life. And when I remember it I can’t help wishing of meeting them again.

The dream I had of wanting and having the things I didn’t possessed was something out of ordinary for an ordinary person like me. What if it turns out to be I’m having all of that, will I be happy and live my life ordinarily? Will I see an ordinary people a wonderful person that can make me smile and can share something to inspire me? Or will I see them as a person who just needs me because they wanted something to me. Will I know how to say thank you to the people who gave me simple things they had and say I’m sorry to the people I had done wrong or will I accept their apologize if they done wrong to me. Will I eat ordinary food they’ve eating and will I be able to have meals with my family and watch movies with them.  Will my mother cooked for us and will I say it was made by her. Will I ever write this to show you my feelings or will I just say to you the beautiful things I had experience with those star and celebrity I had met, meeting them all over the world, having a luxurious life with them and will I just tell to you other people experiences of hardship, instead of mine? …. And will I ever be thankful to “HIM” saying it was all his goodness and blessing to me that I received all I have or will I ignore him saying to myself it was done by my own hands and it’s that I’m just “GREAT!.”  … now I’m thinking…

 “WHAT IF”?....

Read My Heart Out: Sampung utos sa Iglesia Ni Cristo (Ten commandment...

Read My Heart Out: Sampung utos sa Iglesia Ni Cristo (Ten commandment...: "I hope you don't mind me copying it, thank you =) I’m an Iglesia Ni Cristo and I’ve copy and paste these commandments for myself to see..."

Sampung utos sa Iglesia Ni Cristo (Ten commandments to Church Of Christ)

I hope you don't mind me copying it, thank you =)

I’m an Iglesia Ni Cristo and I’ve copy and paste these commandments for myself to see what our minister told us during our worship day. We did have the copy on our own but I didn’t able to read it but now I did. The minister told us that we should check if we were following all the commandments we had received. These commandments will help us to know what the things we failed to do and that is for the sake of serving our father, GOD and for our faith to grow even stronger. I agree to what he told us during our worship day. And I realized something.

Some says that it’s hard being Iglesia ni Cristo. I asked them why they think so? They told me because there were many rules to follow. And they were afraid of not fulfilling all of the rules inside the church. They were afraid to take a responsibility that they couldn’t handle. They can’t leave their old ways of living and they can’t offer their time to know what the church will going to tell them. It’s like they close their eyes and ears for them not to see and hear what the church can teach them. I can’t force them though; I don’t have the right to do that because I honestly say that some of the brethren were like them too. I, too, can sometimes be like that. But to think that the problem is not the rules or the commandments but “MYSELF”. It hurts me more when I think about what I’m still missing. Sometimes I wish that I'm perfect so that it's not hard for me to follow and my conscience is all clear. But he made us not perfect... why? because we should understand that we're not living in the fantasy but in reality, in this world.

Yes, it’s true. We, Iglesia ni Cristo were all afraid too, of not fulfilling all of the rules that had given to us. We sometimes find time in our busy day fulfilling our duty and make a hard time to be what we’re expecting us to be. Because we’re also people like you, we can be exhausted, we can feel hunger, we sometimes got sick and sometimes face difficulties that it’s hard for us to handle… but what we have is what you don’t have and that is “Our FAITH!”.  Not simple faith that can be vanishing in thin air but a deeper faith that whatever you do it’s still there inside your heart and mind... and you couldn't erase it. But GOD is great because although he kept it  deep inside his brethren's heart and mind, if this will be covered with fears, doubts, envy, and all the thoughts about the material world it will not disappear but it will just stuck inside there and you’ll never find it unless you’ll remove all the things that covers it.

So we are not fulfilling our duty because we’re told to do so, or our minister told us to do so… but it’s what our heart and mind told us to do. We were using it to make us tougher, to make us braver and specially to show our love to the “Church”, to our “Savior Jesus Christ”, and esp. “to our “Father GOD in heaven”.  Don’t think of false accusations… (I’m talking to not brethren)…

So what I’ve realized is that not counting the things you have done of following that list but being aware of who you are as a brethren. It might be hard but no matter how hard it is we should face it with great courage for us to win our battles. As a brethren, I will never forget that what I had can't be bought with anything and it was given to me not with just somebody… so we should be tougher as always, smarter than before and always hoping that our sacrifices will never ever be forgotten. We should remember that the reason of these commandments should not just to be read or posted but to be done. And that is what “INC true calling”.  (Now, I’m talking to brethren)…

Read My Heart Out: Nurses

Read My Heart Out: Nurses: " I always asked myself if I will continue my course in nursing. I somehow lose interest to my course not just because I had stop for al..."

Nurses

 

I always asked myself if I will continue my course in nursing. I somehow lose interest to my course not just because I had stop for almost 2 years now but also of the things I saw and heard to other graduates of that course.  I heard that they can’t find jobs that easily and they have to pay the hospital just to gain experiences. Some were able to find job as a nurse but their salary wasn’t enough even to support their own living everyday. Some luckily got a job abroad but says that their job was not as a nurse but as a caregiver and even as a domestic helper. Some seek for a different job that’s not related to their course, some became call center agent, cashier, sales clerk, etc. If you think about it “WHAT THE HECK! Right?”. 

Disappointed? Yes! surely. Same courses but different jobs and paths they’ve took. Some regret why they've took nursing. Some were not happy about it. Some says that it’s only on your ability of finding a job. Some says it’s your will of using it and your heart and love for that career. Some says that you should have money to use that course and some says you should be at least one of the top 10 passer on board exam. Some says our government pay less attention to all medical staff and they didn't care and know how to solve a certain problem. Some says it's just practical to seek other jobs because the important thing is to just help your family in anyway that you can. And what I say “It’s all CORRECT!”. Because it's the reality! I know that people just say what they knew and proved base on their own experiences. But in the end it's the matter of choosing and learning about what's life wanted you to learn about.

I asked myself again why I took up that course even though it cost a big amount of money that I know my parents couldn’t afford. Maybe before I dreamed of going to another country and earned a lot of money. Or maybe before it was my passion and the thing I really wanted to do. But now it’s not clear to me why did I took that course. Maybe before I’m not aware of how important it is to choose the right course for you in college. How important to know what you love doing and what you want for your future. Now, I know that I can’t turn back the time when I’m picking the course I should have take. Before, I only dreamed of finishing my course and used it to have a better life. Simple and immature, yes, I was. I didn’t know and expect the circumstances and trials I’m about to face. I’m not aware of loving what you do and giving your heart to your work. That in life, there are many choices ahead of you and your dreams might be vanished so quickly that you never even know it.

It's not I hated the course, no I'm not! I knew how hard it is to be a nurse and what they do is a very noble job. I admire them for giving their time and love for other people who seek it. For the comfort and affection they're sharing. For sacrificing even though they didn't gain much. Someday, I want to see them happy and people are not saying bad things about them. However, things were going bad recently that some of them became so exhausted that they can't even smile. They were all planning to go abroad to gain much for their family. They say that it's hard to help others if you can't even help yourself. That the value of money is very important and the amount of salary is what people are talking about this day. Naturally, people will find a better life for him/herself, you can't find people who doesn't even have a dream for that thing. We all have. And maybe the problem is not the course but in the hardship and poverty we all experiencing now. 

My parents told me that the important thing was you had just finished your course in college, whatever it was… and since I just have one and half years to go to finish my course they wanted me to continue it and maybe there is a better future that’s waiting for me at the end of the line. I’m agreeing with what they’ve told me but still my heart for that course wasn’t there anymore. Now my only goal is to have a degree in college, using it or not, I don’t want to care anymore. I don’t want to expect for any good things to happen to me in the future but I’m expecting for an unexpected things that will surely happen in my life. It’s just I wanted to raise my guard up to be able to accept the things “good or bad” will gonna happen in my future. Still we’re the one that’s writing our own story in life. Our future is not written yet but we will still hoping that the end of our story will going to be a happy ending.  

"TO ALL NURSES OUT THERE I HONESTLY SALUTE YOU!"  =)